Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Mom,

I must have listened to u..

U told me to learn Karnatic Music when I was 8
I thought it was fashionable to say "I wont"

Despite ur best efforts I won my game of ego..
and I ended up not learning it

Today, I repent ..
Wish I could sing aloud..
Wish I could sing my heart out..
Wish I dinn have to carry on with the heaviness in my heart ....

Wish it was "Kurai Ondrum illai, malai moorthy kanna"

~ Realization thats late by a few years, To be Precise, 16 years ~
I promise to listen to u in every bit of detail, now on.

Monday, May 23, 2005

I live on the ninth floor of a 14 storey building. The apartment has a balcony that looks out towards the city. I have lived here for the past 10 months now.

However I never realized until today that the balcony made a wonderful piece of scenic and pictureque view point. I have always been accused of spending 95% of my non-sleep and non-class hours on the phone. Well, no one actually accused me. Tis just that I have enjoyed being online! Nothing has changed now than the realization of the fact that being on the phone in the balcony rather than in the bed behind the comforter would probably be more exciting !!

If I were Wordsworth, I would pen a poetry abt the scene. All green, ever extending blues, no traffic and a panoromic view of the world in its entirety.

Sadly, that I am not wordsworth, I stop here.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

With the list of things that are yet undone......

Draw sequence diagrams for an assignment due tommorrow
Draw class diagram for a project thats due tommorrow
Grade 100 odd papers
ERP project thats due a long time later - 3 more days to go
EBIZ project - behind by just 2 weeks
Mrinalya Project - behind by just a month !

To top the academia,
"Collect addresses so that I can post the wedding invitations",
"Go to Kroger and Do Some HAVE-TO-DO shopping for the weekend retreat !"

The next week is going to be hectic, with prof meeting, beating and slacking !!:) Am I beyond repairs? The irony of the situation is that I am not too bothered about any of the above mentioned 'to-do's.

Lethargy and laziness has built into my system so much that I would probably miss it if it chooses to bid adieu. So it stays on and I stay put on blogger world rather than start even with one of the action items

As happy and Smiling :~: as ever
One of my 'da gang' friends is getting married today. This post is a tribute to his marriage, to the couple, toast on our friendship and a note to say "Wish u a great life ahead"

Nalam vazha ennalum en vaazhthukkal
Tamizh koorum pallandu en vaarthaigal

100 varusham indha maapliyum ponnum dhaan
peru vilanga nalla vazhanum !

Little would the couple understand the meaning of the above verses.

Yes, we are a group of friends from diverse cultures that found a meeting point in the name of Oracle, when we joined the company on the 29th April 2002. For most of us, it was the first job, high expectations, honey-moon period in a company paid guest house and a team building experience that brought us into a close-knit group of well mannered, mature friends who are again now seeking different experiences in different parts of the world.
Yesterday, I had been to a 'party' party, where people expected me (and some of my friends) to actually party which we dinn know how?! The day before the hosts of the party had held one for the undergrads where those kids seems to have made a mess of a place. And we the graduates were well-behaved which was puzzling for the hosts. Part of the reason is probably the fact that most of us were from a low-profile background that kept enthusiasm of the real 'party' folks damped too. Ideally, it musy have been the other way round, the real party folks egging on the others to perform (:p ;)) , energize and party.

Yours truly is a vegetarian and doesnot mind eating anything under the sun under the belief that what she is eating has no meat. The moment she knows that something contains meat, no one can make her have it - come what may.

I noticed a fellow me who walked across the buffet table, looked at the different platters and moved on and soon he found himself at the end of the buffet table and the plate was empty. And there was potato chips at the end that he could finally pile on into his plate. :)

Considering the number of vegetarians in a typical party, I would vouch to have a few veggie dishes that she can mouth. In the next year's party, its gonna be a treat from yours truly in preparing a vegetarian meal section. By that time, I hope to be an expert cook !

Fine, now the scene change. You find a bunch of guys playing soccer. I am not a big player of soccer but would have loved to try my hand (sorry leg) at the game. What kept me at bay .. Well, I hate to admit it was the fact that there was no other 'girl' who could play. All the other girls were chit-chatting and so was I !:(

I spent 34 bucks getting there! Thankfully, one of the kind-hearted professors offered to drop me back. Thank You sir. Thank You party for a few facts that quite threw me off like the style of the outfit to the lifestyle of a Indo-American family !!

Long live partying !!

May 22 2005 - Once again, I created the blog

I have had a perpetual desire to start a blog and begin blogging. However it required a much stronger drive that I today (hopefully) got by reading my roomie's writing escapades.

I would owe u a thank you note if this materializes into a regular blogging window. Wait on the timeline until then !

Now that I have started, I have 1001 scenes, reaons, incidents, stories and anectodes that I want to write about. But I wonder if one of them will entify into a BLOG ENTRY.

Dont cut things short !!

Scene: A bunch of people in a general conversation. Three students and two professors.

A New Topic: What was the daughter of one of the professors doing !

Past Info in the group: She was looking to join an under-grad school. Which school was the question

Professor Says:
She is going to Wash U.

Thunder burst out laughing !!!!!
She was just going to the 'Washington University, St Loius", which was universally said and understood as "Wash U"!!!!

The truth of the matter is these days, everything has an abbreviation.. Ther is no time left in the world to speak every word in its details. And once in a while, the sentence parts of verb and noun, subject and predicate fall in such a precise place that the whole sentence is mind-blowingly ....

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Does life suck ?

When something sucks, it saps your energy and undermines the quality of your life. It makes you feel smaller and wish you hadn't participated. It sabotages your joy and you walk away feeling crummy. When it comes to your life sucking, you cant just walk away from it. If your life is getting in your face, you might want to know why, so you can do something about it before it gets worse. As you face and plug each hole, you will transform every challenge into a gift.

Together we can turn tragedy into triumph and make it all a win. You are not a victim, you are a powerful creator. You can make the changes in your life that will get you the results you want. I guarantee that if you practice the principles you learn here, your life will change for the better. Plugging one leak at a time. Along the way, you might even fall in love with yourself.

Unsucking your life is an inside job. You do not need to import power, for you were born with it; you just need to plug the holes in your bucket through which it is leaking. The quest is about peeling away the lies and illusions you have been told, and went on to tell yourself, that have kept you living smaller than you deserve. When you do, you will be amazed to realise how much you have settled for. Then you will have little patience for halfhearted living and reclaim your right to live from choice rather than default.

Any experience that leaves you feeling empty, less-than, or needy does so for only one reason: You entered into it feeling empty, less-than, or needy. The illusion is that relationships will take away the pain that keeps you feeling small; the reality is that relationships magnify the pain that keeps you feeling small. And yet there is a gift in the process: you remember that the source of your strength is inside you. When you elevate others at your expense, nobody wins. When you source your life from inside out, everyone wins.

- as said in Times of India -